Robbie Scoops An ECHO Award In Germany
March 5, 2010 2:17 pm NewsRobbie has landed the Best International Male Artist award at this year’s ECHO Awards in Berlin, the seventh time he has won the prestigious music prize since 2002.
He fought off tough competition from music legends Bruce Springsteen and Mark Knopfler to scoop the prize at Germany’s premier music awards ceremony, where Robbie also performed his new single, Morning Sun, live. (source: Robbie Williams FB mailing)
March 8th, 2010 at 4:23
i dont know what triggers my mind about you……. still
i am not over it obviously havebt worked it through properly
i have been so nasty, why, because your not dead, because i am not…..
i think what we did to each other is really sad….. I am so sad for us….
because i really remenber you, and the feelings and the most outstanding nights of my life, were in a room looking into your eyes, and feeling……. in the beginnnign it was magical and then even when it turned dark it was still magical.
through all of this i have jut come to realise i have lost you just the same and it is the greatest tragedy of all…..
we didnt change at all…… we lost each other and that changed us….. and i think we feel guilty for them……. and hate each other accordingly,
it wouldnt be right to be nice to each other and heal our pain and be happy would it…..
i feel so mixed up now, more mixed up now
i havent grieved for you, and i loved you so much…. and i remeber when you left and i called you overseas and you came back ASAp, like magic you were there again and i coudldnt speak or look at you
i knew i was all going to feel rippped…… like magic you would appear……..
when your angry at me it makes me feel all alone on this gigantic planet and i hated that……
I fkn am all alone on this plant and that bloody star is still there i am the only looking at it and i hate it……….
aand as for summer well its fkn hot and thats that hot sweaty and it makes my haor frizzy and thats it….
I am not the queen of mambo apparantly….. you shouldnt of said i was cause i believed you,a nd i thiught we were a pair, that were put here togehter on thos fkn planet and i believed thst i really did
i really did, i have been tooo proud to realise i lost you and it hurts and i miss you nd i cried on the floor gutted and in sooo much pain when i rmeembered him, and it hurts still
i never fell to the floor gutted over losing you, i have had a few menatl breakdowns, i have yelled and screaned at everybody and everything, i have passionatley blamed and hated you for no reason at all
i realise it is because when i fall to the floor over losing you I dont thinnk i will get up… i dont tink i will forget your eyes, and the pain
it got to a point it was just as painfull when you walked through the door as when you were leaving becuase you were always leaving, that i just became numb and swallowed it…. and it has been poison in my guts ever since and I don’t have time to go through losing you, i cant afford six months on the floor crying….. over you
you dumped me, its as simple as that…… i really loved you and believed in us……. somehow i went from being the queen of mambo to being shit…
and that happens…. if you were dead and i was dead
it would be different wouldnt it we would be different, we would feel different about each other
thats the way it is isnt it
i realsie that now, and it makes it easier for me to see you and how real we were once were and how big it was the feelings the wanting and the missing
i remeber being dead when yo were gone and slowly coming to life and going through it over andover agian untill i had to go with you and then it all happened
and just at the point when i had to be with you….
i couldnt live without you anymore .
it all went so wrong and i felt so abandoned and gutted and shocked and then you hated me and i have never had the fire for life that i had
i know you forgave me and along came the bat plane and i well, all those times i wanted to go with you
but i never knew if you knew how deeply i loved you and if you even wanted that
that presence in your life is it me, becuase its you for me…..
i really feel your loss now… for the forst time since way back when, i have been fighting this for so loong ,
you were so great, you meant so much to me and it was perfectly all so very wrong
it could only happen to me, how the fk did all that shit happen to us…….
and yet we are still alive and worlds apart as if it never was…..
the whole ting is just so fkn crazy……..
that star is a pain in the arse, its still their….
i get why i have fought this off its bullshit,
i have had some great excuses to not go with you havent I
ts funny, the child has to finsh primary school then high school and then the apprenticeship, and then i have all this loyalty and promise made on death beds to honour
its crap………… The fear factor, scared not of you, of feelings and i suppose scared of what happened, look what happened, i am scared of going back
i really love you, i miss you, and i want to rest and sleep and cry and feel safe…… and get better
really get better and find me again…..
we lost each other as well we both died as well
I dont give a shit aobut the queen of mambo or any of that
i never did you know that…. i did care about being equal to you being your other half on the planet
and it all comes back tothis
i sit here devastated, i go out to my star and i think about the one way strett of pain i am walking down, loving angels instead, and how i want to feel real ove in the home i live in, how i am their mum nd i am scum, i have come undone…… my friends thing i am strong but ia am not
and then like magic the words i long to hear from you are all in the song……
you know me……… i wish i was in that wonderland with you again and you were singing that to me and you wrer going to and then you chnged your fkn mind
you know what I think that is why I LOVE YOU a life time of love and pain and indifference, perhaps we are pair after all…… I love you and it and i miss you and it hurts
and nothing will ever be as
i am wordless at the moment, i cant finish that sentence and then i come back to je te plus
i have nothing to give you, except love at its best and at its very worst
money and fame and glory my be a distraction, and i havent had any of those things a distraction is a distraction and that is all it is…….
i dont think your over me either, just peacefully distracted……
i wish god would send me a great big distraction
peace be with you
love to you sent via the star that refuses to stop shining up above to the right of where i am
the publicity has been a great improvement…….
your a legend
March 8th, 2010 at 4:33
nothing will ever be as visual as the writing on that wall, it was there, its just an eclipse, so that we may wonder and be alone.
March 8th, 2010 at 4:37
we cant love each other until we are dead to each other
and ilove you that much, you dont know how badly i have hurt and missed you all this time to this very day and i am letting you go at last and it hurts
at least now i have memories and loss is better and cleaner and purer than hate and love
March 8th, 2010 at 4:43
i am kidding myself i k now this is my mountain to climb, for the rest of my life, i have to climb this mountain and get to the top and i may never get there
it is better than crying at the bottom and feeling left behind and i did that for awhile and i didnt like myself
i blamed you, and i am sorry for that really really sorry for that
because i love you and i wanted that to be agood thing that i gave you i never realised i could do thst
i do love you, and i have never worked my way through that with anyone before……
thankyou for that, i worked through it and i do ;ove you and its all that you did and the time you stood on the side lines looking at me and coming back for me
thankyou for all the feelings you one had for me and all that you gave to me and wanted to give me
thnkyou so much
just forgive me……..
March 8th, 2010 at 4:54
you know that its all the trauma and crap that happened dont you, not you, and not really me, its jsut the damage, its never been fixed, i have tried and still am
its getting a bit better, i dont know if i will ever not have insurmountable damage
i dont tink i am me yet, i am close , but i am not there yet….. i know the truth, i love you, it hurt and it still hurts, but i love you and you loved me and we hurt each other, and we are real
its jsut that star and the angels and comin undone and feel love in my home, is very private and then it wasnt anymore….. i am over that now, it was realy stupid of me to feel what i felt
i realised to nite thatit is still private my private moment and my private words, prayers, that soothe my soul while i look up at that star waiting for the sun to come up, and then i suddenly feel sleepy and lay down in on my bed and so tired pretend that my angels are cuddling me and i can sometimes really feel comfort and sleep deeply……. i lost that for a while
i am over it, i have it back and your one of those angels now, and i send love to you and hope that from time to time you will think of me end love to comfort me…… put your hands across the pillows……
i have your eyes to remember
March 8th, 2010 at 4:55
a bad atttiude would be really good right now, this is crap
March 13th, 2010 at 4:35
new favourite movie and song
coco avante so moving and so relative, amazing
you know me, most favourite song and movie of all time actually
not relavant to anyone else inparticular but relative to my inner being
mario is such a fool, he has no idea the idea power and money he has thrown away, half being mine….
no Victory
i figured that out on the mountain….
and you, insincere to such a small degree, but that was all it had to be to leave me stranded…..
you were missisng something too……… i will never know
when all has failed and all is wasted, what next
the book is not worth writing, insincere men who suffer from narcixm are nothing new and a foolish woman is not very interesting
coco wasnt foolish in the end, and i shall try to find her inspiration and walk tall anyway, not about to design clothes, at least i have figured out where my success lies……… not on her level, she wasnt cut down like me, she was boosted
ve observed something that people need
who knows i have perfected it
just have to find the market and sell it, no let it come for me, let it ask for me………..
i just need to find an insincere man to fund me the way coco was funded
fortunatly insincere men are not scarce
March 21st, 2010 at 1:52
Hey hope your happy sincerely and well
I am better kind of, I am not at peace with the past, but I am not mad at you anymore, and that fells really good inside, I am sorry, I am still getting over it , but I am not angry anymore or being a bitch.
I survived it as you did,I am sorry i didnt think i would survive and i really thought i needed you to look after me with money and stuff, but I did it and I wasnt really mad at you and didnt want money, i was scared i wouldnt survive it and that my sons wouldnt survive mainly
we did, we both did
Now that your practically married its up to me to move on and the same, I amy as well
OPRAH did a show recently and it was aobut a woman and the man being dead and OPRAH told her its time for a new dream, if its dead its dead and yu can dream a different dream
I did summer dreamin by myself and it was crap……..
NEW DREAM COMING
luv you and thanx for bbeleiving so much in the old one
your my favourite person and i have love for you always
Your a legend, your so cool, you did it…… I am so happy for you
March 21st, 2010 at 3:42
anyway
you know when i saw you last, and you gave me your numbers, and we alked but i wasnt all there i was stuck in time
when you aid you would be proud to have me onthe back of your bike
that really pissed me off and hurt very much
I am over that now, i dont see that the way men do at all
i dont ever want to get on the back of a bike
no reason
i am not proud of any of it
sorry i didnt call you and threw the numbers away and went psyco at you
i wish i rememebered it all in order and clearly but i didnt it was crazy i was crazy
sorry about my ego
i just never felt good enough for you, that is all their is to it
i wanted to believe we were a pair and i was part of it
I am actually content with me again
brcuase i remeber that you did like me the way i was and you really did and i realy liked you
it has taken all this and the time involved to realose that i do love you properly, i am sorry i hurt you and made you suffer bu tmy boys will tell you thats me…. and its my own hurt and suffering that spills out onto those i love
i am sorry
and of course guilty about monkee, you will ever reralise how much and how horrific that night was
i am so sorry
i sit under that star, i showe dmonkee that star too
it is still there, i am glad showed you both, i can think of you when i look at it and close my eyes and pretend your there
my new dream is to be happy with me and to feel good enough and just accept everything and let it go
iTS EASY FOLR ME TO LOOK OVER THE PAST YEARS AND SAY SORRY
ITS EASY TO BE NICE AND TRUE AGAIN, BECAUSE IT DOESNT HURT AS MUCH ANYNORE, THE PAIN FEELS NORMAL NOW
AT THE TIME, I WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN IT HURT SO MUCH SO MUCH IT HURT ROBBIE IT HURT SO MUCH I COULDNT HELP IT, I CANT TAKE IT BACK, IT HURT AND I COULDNT CONTROLL MYSELF OR THE WAY I FELT
I WANTED YOU SO BADLY TO COMFORT AND LOOK AFTER ME REALLY BADLY I NEEDED YOU SO MUCH
I GOT THROUGH IT AND I REALISE YOU EENT THROUGH IT TOO AND I WASSNT THERE FOR YOU EITHER AND I AM REALLY SORRY I WASNT
AND I SUPPOSE IT IS ALL TOO LATE
I AM GLAD I AM BACK TO WHAT IS IMPORTANT
REMMBER PUT YOUR HANDS ACROSS THE WATER AND THE PILLOWS AND ME CLOSING MY EYES TO REACH OU TTO YOU WHEREVER YOU WERE
I LOOKED UP THE NEW LYRICS AND I AM GLAD YOUR OFF THE OTHER, REALLY PROUD, SO IS MY SON
GOD DOES STILL ANSWER MY PRAYERS
I GET IT
TJOSE SUNNY DAYS ARE EVEN BETTER FOR US
THATS GOOD AND OF COURSE WORK DOING SO WELL FOR YOU IS A GREAT DISTRACTION, BEING BUSY IS GREAT
I HAVE GROWN UP I NEEDED TOO, I AM BETTER THAN BEOFRE, I AM MORE GENUINE NOW, I UNDERSTAND MYSELF BETTER NOW AND I AM SORRY YOU COPPED IT
I MISS YOU SO MUCH, WE NEVER HAD MUCH TIME DID WE, IT WAS NEVER LONG ENOUGH AND ALWAYS YEARS OR MOPNTHS APART BUT IT WAS EFFECTIVE,
I DO STILL THINK ABOUT GEOFF WHEN I THINK ABOUT YOU,
LIFE IS FULL OF BETRAYALS
I SUPPOSE ITS WHY FORGIVENESS EXSISTS
WE CANT LOVE IF WE CANT FORGIVE
WHATEVER I SAID WHATEVER I DID I DIDNT MEAN IT
WANT YOU BASK
WANT YOU BACK i JUST
WANAAAT YOU BACK FOR GOOOOOOD
I REALLY WANTED TO GO WITH YOU AT THE CAXTON WHEN BLONDIE WAS THERE
I REALLY DID EVERY TOME
EVEN THE LAST TIME, I WAS FKD, I WISH YOU CAME BACK FOR ME AND I AM SORRY I DID EVERYTHING I DID
I DONT EVEN KNOW ME
I HAD THE FAITH I USED TO BLEIEVE AND BE P;ATIENT AND KEPP GOING
i AM SORRY WE ARE NOT STRONG
WHAT WOULD MONKEE SAY JOHN, ABOUT US, ABOUT ALL OF THIS,
I AM GLAD WE LOVE HIM ENOUGH TO BE DESTROYED LIKE WE WERE, WE WERE DESTROLYED
I AM SORRY FOR MANY THINGS
I AM GLAD I WAS A DISASTER I WOULD BERASHAMED IF I WASNT I WOULD FEEL ALOT WORSE IF I WASNT THE TRAIN WRECK I AM
I AM STRONGER NOW THAN BEOFRE AND TAT IS GOOD
I CAN SEE YHE DIFFERENCE
I AM OVER MOST DELUSIONS ESPECIALLY ABOUT MEN AND LOVE ETC\\
HOW COME I UNDERSTND YOU LOVING PEOPLE NOT GENDER, ACTUALLY I LOVE THAT ABOUT YOU I
March 21st, 2010 at 3:51
I KNOW NOW THAT AS DEEPLY AS YOU FEEL BETRAYED, YOU SHOULDNT BUT PROBABLY WONT SEE WHAT SET ME OFF
IN THE SAME WAY I KNOW I NEVR SHOULD HAVE FELT BETRAYE AT ALL AND I DONT ANYMORE, I REALLY DONT
DISSAPOINTED BUT NOT BETRAYED
I AM OVER THE DISSAPOINTMENT
I REMEBER SAYING BAKC THEN WE EACH HAVE A PEICE OF THE ONE PITCRE THAT MANKES UP THE WHOLE
AND WE HAVENT PUT THE PIECES TOGETHER SO WE DONT KNOW WHAT THE STORY IS
I MISS YOU SO MUCH
I WISH I COULD SNUGGLE UP NEXT TO YOU AND PRETEND THE WRLD AS DEAD AND REALY SLEEP AND BE AT PEACE
BUT THEN YOU WOULD ONLY HAVE TO WAKE UP AND LEAVE ME HERE
IT WAS ALWAYS SO SAD
NOW I AM FREE TI GO WITH YOU,NOTING STOPPING ME ANYMORE THERE ARE NO EXCUSES
EXCEPT YOUR GONE NOT THERE NOT COMING BACK
March 25th, 2010 at 6:05
the moon was so big and half eclipsed, it was right in front of me on the road most travelled, never saw it before i was just lookin for the star i share, and its all changed
god rearranged the fkn sky
id ask why but that rhymes and sounds like crap
your getting all these awards and succes is a blast iam thrilled for you and cheers i know your havin a blast
your not a king in a jungle anymore your a legend you aint got any more time for me and i dont have to wonder why, you dont me to tag along and thats just fine
wheres th ebat plane send robin instead, i could read a note and get the word, chat on the phone and smile a bit at
how does it really feel is it all a blurr are your feet on the ground can you feel your self breathe whats it like to have important people bow
how do you feel how do you feel
do you really miss the nights we split the confusion all the diilluion
how do you feel how do you feel
whats the models usual pace are they in awe do you like the fancy it must feel good you know it does but your alone and see it my way you know you do
you did it you did it how does it feel how does it fee
how do you feel how do you feel
thats what i think abou tyou
how does he feel what does he think he is all lone does he think about me, how does he feel
its over and jusst the past and he is ok now thats the truth, so how does he feel mhow does he feel
March 25th, 2010 at 6:18
by the way heard about mark, i have done the alcohol and drug councilling diploma
its like this, he has to deal with the issues underlying, and put in a strategy to cope when it surfces its all emotions and relationships raise emotions and its cycle
confedintiallity is a problem for you guys, so do it together talk about the pasr and how you all felt and get it out and then he can plan away to deal with emotions
drinking and seeing other women is a distraction
you guys are not gonna get any woman to understand the road you had to travel and what you have been through and the current hoax must be tragic
you need each other and yougot to get real with each other and talk acknowledge the truth and dont ex[ect anything from ypur partners because its iut of their deoth i am with you and i understand
i had alot of therapy, cause i could it worked
if you need a councillor i am here a remote spot near aussie rebel would be agood place to heal mark and he would be ok not prfect but i could get him on top of it not it on top of him and i already know the stroy so he doesnt have to worry
he has to get on top of it you all do its such a waste otherwise
wishing him well and i hope they realise how much of friend beneath it all you gebuinley are, just got to go deep is all
your a very important man John P Conway
March 25th, 2010 at 6:22
sounds like your finally a band of brohers and brothers rarely get along but they are there for each other and do care
I am happy for you about this more than anythign robbie becuase i think this is what you valued more than all of it ack then
its so nice to see all of this unfold
how do you feel inside
April 5th, 2010 at 1:03
every night i just wanna go out and get out of my head
every day i dont wanna get up get out of my bed
every nite i want to play out
every day i wanna do
but tonite i just wanna stay in and be with you
every day i lean ona lamp post i am wastin my tme
every nite i lay on a pillow i am restin my mind
every mornin brings a new day
every nite that day is thru
but tonite i just wanna stay in and be with you
but tonite i just wanna stay in and be with you
be with you
April 7th, 2010 at 10:13
when i think about what happeneed to me in 84 and how everyone has treayed me since including you and you said some shit that cut up me up so bad i faded off the face of the earth for what was it ten fiftyeen years
so dont gorgive me, and if you cabt see where the poison and toxic waste came from then dont and if you want t ohold it against me DOO
I cant deal wiyh any of it anymore, i am sick of memories nnd missing the old you and how much i miss the old you really.
i wish someone would just step in and take me away from all od this and wipe the past and my emotions cleam.
i ddont want to love you not after all this
April 12th, 2010 at 3:27
I am over needing to be forgiven, thats passed, I am still sorry but thats gonna be permanent state eiher way.
i guess your in my old shoes and i am in yours, the table has turned, it was different when i you had the bat and ball and i was left getting hit from every angle, speechless devastated, traumatised that you could say all the things you once said, i know now you didnt mean any of it, probably havent got a clue what you said anyway, because now that i have played the game i understand.
I am more hurt about what i have done that what has been done to me, i wish i was stronger and that i didnt crash and burn the way i have, its horrible to fall so far , down you jsut cant ever get back
and you will say its the choices that i m\make, are you fkn kidding
you have choices up there, down here we have Domino’s
those dominos hit so hard and fast you dont have time to duck or weave, let alone ponder making a choice, or ever being able to look up long enough to know there is sucha thing as having a choice
its dominos the last one fell and in looking back its wreck and ruin and a whole life to pick up and I dont even remeber hoe to play the game, never played it, just got hit with all the ones that were stacked brfore i was born, and somehow you and monkee got hit with them too and I am so sorry,
I wanted you to succeed more than anything back then, that was paramount i beleived i you and yet that hhorrible human part of me i hate so much, acutally resented it so badly, i acknowledge that resentment now, i didnt see it for what it was, the devil lives in all of us, and iam struck by my humanity harder than by anyone elses,
when you asked me if there was any one I wanted to marry,
I had too many questions for myself, its not who it was how…. I knew me and that predicted the end.
I had to go through this to know how, i already knew who and you know that was you or you wouldnt have raised the question, although yuou wee asking alot of others at the same time it was weird of you
good questiona nd it raised all the thoughts
Marriage only works when there is no option to divorce ever. and theirfore it doesnt work, its not real,
now the train has derailed its easy to see it all, picking uo the peices is another story, and i should be dead about now, I have no desire to pick any of those pieces up it doesnt matter
i have taken all this time to go through all of this
i woke up this morning and the world has ened and i am the only one left thier is nothing left, its all gone, the world is empty..
its not that i couldnt easily find someone else, i am just not going through the process of all that again and with shawn that was just fake a diversion a pitcure to step into and it was good an escape a delusion,
funny hting is if this was someon else talking youd be the delsuion and shawn would have been the reality, as if anything is normal in my life……
the oint being i actually dont want anyone, i dont want to start again and go through all of this,
fair enough this was not an average disagreement and under the circumastances it was always going to be hard to have such am emotionally explosive situation bound and we were bound by the situation, to have any chance of working through anything and allowing it to evolve normally,
but this is too way out even for us……
i only picked up all the balls you hit me with me and whacked them back at you perhaps your more sensitive than i , however i have apologised as you have and we now have a clear understaning of how the other feels and was feeling
i neverwanted to see or speak to you again many times but i also just diverted the whole thing so i could stay with you for abit longer and get off the subject of you hurtign me and isnulting me and accusing me etc, and i have done it al to you and if it made you fell better bck then then I its all ok
we are not going to make up and santa isnt coming, eating tuna and beans and chick peas is fkd by the way,
i dont talk about you, i talk about me, and what i am going through,
i heard my neigbour talking aobut her boyfriend to her friends and i havent been that nasty believe me and it wasnt nice, he hurt her she hurt him, but today they are back in the shower laughing,
its all over you going to Annettes and nothing more, I needed you at the time very much more tan anyone or anything i wanted to see you even for a few hours i needed you very much, saw the car, that roll over did cause chaos
i needed to be in the moment with you even just foe a moment, just a bit of comfort
i have been screaming and throwing a massive tantrem since and i didnt realise that that is what i have been doing.
and now that the cellaphane is off,
i am done, i have nothing to say
i got over every other tragedy and loss in my life, and i will get over you too, and not having you on my side anymore is a huge tragedy and loss and one i feel very deeply
i will probablynake a whole list of bad choices becuase i am too hurt and blind with greif to see or care
and i have to get strong and start caring and stop grieving, i can t get up or get motivated to do anything
living in the emotional world is fkd, i am pulling myself out of it
I couldnt bare to let another person let me down, and even worse to be so cold that i will love another person, IRONIC
DENIAL was the hapiest part of my life, I would give anythign to be in denial again.
I think i should get hypnotided again, serioudly, i have some money
i am gonna do it, they did a bit more thn hypnotoseme back then, but i want to forget about it all and focus on anything other this crazy nightmare
I am not that shallow that i need or want to be famous, you have misunderstood, and you know i am not shallow and i know you know me and
it doesnt matter anyway, nothing is permanent……
i had no way of knowing if you read any of this shit, none at all, and it didnt seem to matter how crazy or far i ran with it,
the one thing we have in common i swe can both be pretty mean when we are hurting
you lew me away back thrn, but the truth is i am shocked at myself
i have lashed out on plenty of people as i am walking ou the door and never regreted it
but this i regret
I never used to have any, you cant have regrets when life is dominos, its all in motion and out of your controll and thts that,
i have two regrets one is to do with my sons and the other is to do with you…….
te shri k said emotions were going to be hard for me, and not something i would be in controll of should i happen to have any and so i do apologise for it sll
i never claimed to be fit to be loved or give love
just genuine in feeling
i understand elvis now
i feel so lonely i could die, becuse nothing will ever take me beyond this point
April 12th, 2010 at 3:28
i just want to get better
April 13th, 2010 at 3:16
I am going to stop this Now, Iam getting help, real help this time, medicationa nd a treatment programme, get a real job and a real life and acccept it all and let it go.
thankyou doe standing by me and doing what you had to do to show me the elephant ion lthe loungeroom I am sorry i kicked screamed and yelled at you, I didnt want to seer it
i didnty want ot come out of denial and you were making me and it was horrific and i launched ana ttack at you without knowing why or
anyway I am glad to have had you and uou were a gift from god and you did get me through.
Your a very special person and I am very gratefull
Its going to be tough living in reality and accpeting it but I have to
I hope you are ok and if you ever want to talk it over nad set it all straight Its not a problem, i guess it doesnt matter any more……..
I am getting help and no one is to get me off this website and move me forwrd and i am going to get medication froma shrinkand supervision froma case worker to keep me focused on the future and away from the past. about now I would be doign lines and trying to escape but i am not going to , not this time
i am getting it right and I promise i will nrvrr get bck intis comp or talk abou tyou again
i was just talking it through it was about me you just happened to be the other party involved
i meant to hurt you and i am sorry it wasnt an accident i did it to drive you away so I didnt have to live with what happened to monkee and i am sorry